Whoa...where am i...

anyway.  lol.  i feel like i have nothing to say...even though EVERYTHING has been happening. whao...crazy.  i just need to warm up.

WARM UP EXCERCISE #1:  CONGRATS to the realest most sincere couple currently @ Highland HS. lol.  i cannot believe it....

WARM UP EXCERCISE #2: omg. Christmas is just around the corner.  Im so excited.  Could i be getting a SPANKING new car (other than or 1 year old Suzuki Vatari?)  we will most definetly see.... i hope diana and kelly get cars too...lol.

WARM UP #3: OMG MY BIRTHDAY CAME!!! i have been 16 for 2 entire months now.  would you like to know how i celebrated!!! well. i will tell you any way.  My friends and i wore PINK and BLACK (or just PINK) to school and we all looked like little cuties....and then a white limo picked us up at school.! it was exciting...then we drove to olive garden with Boa's around our necks and crowns on our heads...and people were staring, and we left feathers EVERYWHERE... but then we went to COld Stones where i discovered the homie Angela is working! and then we went home and did cooookie girl things: like a mummy wrap, a buble eating contest except the gum was hidden in whipped cream and we did kareoke  it was great fun....i will put pics up here

cuz i have to go christmas gifts THIS INSTANT!!!!

so. wuts up.  nothing much here. im bored to death. JUST KIDDING.i feel like i have TONS of problems and not enough heart for it all. Ive discovered that BOYS ARE DUMB...lol. not ALL of them...but the vast majority. 

We had a ":cry fest " in Art today.  first it was one of us, then we started writing sentimental letters to her, then she started crying again...lol. then we got all mushy about friends, and decided we are going to have  a sleep over @ Kristins. then we go outside and one of us says "You know, i never really had any TRUE friends, until i met you guys." omg. i teared up, and then Rebecca started crying...and wow. it was touching. I love you guys so much... im not even kidding. i know you will forever and always have my back. and im so grateful for you guys. KISSES infinity~~mah "Terror Squad"  ((do the rock away n' lEan baCk!!!")) 

JUNIOR year is so awesome. minus biology...lol. AND latin!!!

CouNtdoWn to RaKia's BIRTHDAY!!!! OCTOBER 3!!! woOt woOt. party!

RakiksterZ

Iwas SOO unbelievably sad today.  no joke. he like REALLY!!! Really likes her.  I heard they were holding hands in the movies and she was kissing him all over his face...UH!!!!! then he had to bust out his phone and show me a picture of her n him.  But i guess i should be happy cuz she doesnt want him like that...the feelings not mutual... but i just came to the realization that IM NOT HAPPY... because when he finds this out, i know its going to hurt him...and i want to see him happy.  i know we all say that and dont mean it. but i do mean it, from my heart.  i really like him, because of the happy person he is... so. i guess, i dont know what i want, it's so dumb.  and today he told me i was a "Baller" becuz of my "heavy wallet:" lol. and he was like "hook me up. i need sum money, just about 10 dollars" and i was like "Whenever you need sumthin, i got it" and the thing is I WAS DEAD SERIOUS.  so we  r obviously friends now....and im sick of being his friend. lol. it sounds bad, i know.

but all that faded away whn i got to hang with the girls in 6th! yah! Art is so fun. Me, Diana, Kelly, Rebecca, Kristin...then next door all the other thugs...lol. have SOOO much fun.  hahaha. "i didnt know horses had those!" hahahahah. anyway... they bring joy to my life.  but i luv u becca. im not mad.

today was black t shirt day.  i had to go to WalMart and get one last nite...so did ted...lol.  The tagless Hanes!!! ha ha. anyway....

uh...thats all, i obviously am emotionally destroyed.... i felt like dying and then i felt like dying cuz i was laughing so hard...

rakiksterZ

yah...so i'm back. after a decade. no just kidding...but yah, i felt i needed to vent,  i just talked to Nancy...and she made sumthing very clear to me...but i cant find my diary thats the only reason im in here...

i was looking at previous entry's andi see that im very much in like...it's ridiculous....lol.  take today for example, i let one innocent statement from him, ruin my day...i wanted to die. lol. IM SO STUPID!!!!!!!! anywhoo...

schools going really good. THUS FAR.  i wish i had gone ahead and joined ASB.  they r gonna have so much fun... and DAvid Weichel is in it? whoa... as long as ive known him, he has never appeared the "school spirit" type.  but it could be because of Anika?! lol.  she's in my art class... and evryday she reminds me of him..and i get irritated. not because i still like him, (because I DONT!!!)  but because i dont see how he can....mahn, i cant explain.  but yah. wutever....uhh. i hate boys.  i always pick the ones with the HUGE EGOS.   maybe it means im like that...i hope not.

BUT yah...like i said, we have had SO many laughs and it's just the first week.  we go buck wild in Art though....that class is crazy fun....i luv it. IB 06' girls are so much fun....wooo. just thinking about it makes me laugh.

Senate meeting today.... whoa, big group.  uhhh, yah.  i think i like the privacy of a little group, but i know we r gonna need alot of help.... so i guess bigger is better in this case...

alright, i guess i will go bathe in sorrow and lost love... lol

RaKia

where...where am i?  i think im lost... oh wait.  i know where i am.  lol

just kidding.  i had a moment there though.  so yah.  it's been fun so far...im going on a real vacation on tuesday.  wOot woOt. 

so Friday..(i think) P. had a party.  it was pretty fun.  hanging out with people i dont usually get to hang out with.  but I CANT BELIEVE NANCY IS LEAVING. wth.  im truly going to miss you.... and i will keep an eye on JK for you...lol.  oh, speaking of JK.  he's back on the market.? lol.  yah, i didnt knw he was ever off, but he was.  he actually got his heart broken.  he seemed soo...genuine and HUMAN when i was talking to him...and he's not really all into himself like he puts off...thats just a front.  i get it.  (i guess?) so now he's lookin for a "female".  but not yet. cuz he doesnt want to be draggin' that chain...u know.  so he's gonna start hittin up the "candidates" about August time... haha.  we all know that Nancy is on the list...from all that chemistry going on friday...lol.  but i had my moment with him.  lol.  kelly wasnt as excited as i was. esp. after i started beating her. haha. he wanted to know if i was ok.  cuz he cares.....lol.  ....and then kelly and perris told everybody about my fetish...(dont ask) so now Marquis  is gonna call me "Nips" and everybody will think im Kinkier than Nancy.... haha...which im sO not.  and then James started teasin' mee by ...well. we wont say. and i run to the other side of the tent by kelly (partially embarrased and the other part of me **gasp** drooling everywhere....) and  he goes "RaKia, i love you".  please dont say things like that to me when you dont mean it. lol.  im serious though.  people use those words so lightly.

so stay tuned for next weeks highlights.  lol. 

bLaH...bLaH...BlaH

RaKia